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not quite a love song [Feb. 26th, 2007|10:39 am]
Ryan Ross
What if every person had rubber bands stretching from somewhere inside their chest, and the other end of each one is wrapped around the finger of each person they've ever met. These people holding the rubber bands can move closer and relax the tension, or pull harder, harder on the person's chest by moving further away.

Or they can let go with their finger and the rubber band will snap back slapping against the person's ribs and all their internal organs.

The closer you are to someone, the more they impact your life, your choices and opinions and hopes, the thicker their rubber band is. The thicker it is, the more force it will have when they let their finger slip and the rubber band comes stinging back against you.

I have a story. Rachel and Adam are in love, in the sweet way where it's the beginning and maybe, maybe it isn't really love yet but who really cares because it sure as hell feels like it. Rachel thinks that maybe this is what family means: her friends and Adam, way more important than divorced parents ever were to a lonely only child. What Adam thinks is hard to say, because Rachel doesn't know and Adam doesn't really know either.

Adam knows a girl named Cindy, and Cindy is in love in the corrosive, obsessive way, where she can't let the object of her affection be happy unless he's happy with her. So Cindy gets Adam drunk, very drunk, drunk enough to confuse him into passion. There they are, sweaty and naked and inebriated, when Rachel finds them.

Rachel feels her rubber band snap hard, harder than anything ever, hardest. But then she sees Adam's face when she tells him it's over, and she realizes that sometimes the thick rubber bands can break, and snap back on both people at once.

The story isn't finished but can't decide what comes next.
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(no subject) [Feb. 19th, 2007|12:31 am]
Ryan Ross
[here's the setting |chez moi (thank you freetranslation.com)]
[the weather today |gratefulgrateful]
[dance to this beat |sixpence none the richer]

You really know who your friends are when they stay there with you even when being a friend gets tough. One of the best feelings I've ever had is finding out I have friends where I didn't expect them.

Evi flew out to visit us in Vegas and I never expected to have the friend in her that I realize now I have. Same with Jon and Spence and of course Brendon - I guess I never understood exactly how much I could trust you guys with.

I guess after growing up with my father (who even though he tried just wasn't the best role model) I had pretty low expectations of people. And not to sound any sappier than I already do but you guys have really shown me how wrong I was.

So thanks. I love you guys.
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(no subject) [Feb. 6th, 2007|10:27 pm]
Ryan Ross
[here's the setting |apartment]
[the weather today |contemplativecontemplative]
[dance to this beat |sophomore slump or comeback of the year - fall out boy]

Ever since I joined this community, I've been campaigning hard to get my band-mates to join...and finally my hard work seems to have paid off! I think Jon's hooked now - he's busy Jonspamming everyone and whatever. And Brendon's commenting left and right.

Brendon. In some ways it's kind of weird having him here, because he could be reading this (if you are - Hi, Bren) but I guess the lack of privacy isn't really any different from living together on a tour bus.

I feel like Brendon and I have really grown together over the years we've known each other...I think the tour helped. We just spent so much time together. And even though I've known Spence the longest, I think maybe now Brendon is my closest friend. Or, if Spence is still my best friend, then Bren and I are just as close in a different way somehow.

Anyway, he's on his way over now...We were talking online and his mom was giving him some shit about being a good Mormon. And how that meant like, not swearing or hanging out with guys of ambiguous sexual orientations. Which seems to include me - simply on the grounds that I look like a woman.

I think it's unfair to discriminate based on first impressions. I'm not a woman. To which I'm sure my past girlfriends can attest. Even if they cheated on me and then dumped me (on the grounds that, as one of them put it, I "wasn't enough of a man"). Oh well. I then wrote songs about them that became international hits on an album that went fucking platinum. IN YOUR FACE.

Or so I would say if I were, you know, five. Or Brendon. Who kind of is five, except that he talks about sex WAY more than any healthy five-year-old does. -.-

Oh, he's here now at the buzzer. Gotta go.
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BLEEEEEEEEEEEP! [Jan. 30th, 2007|12:57 pm]
Ryan Ross
[Tags|, , ]
[here's the setting |apartment]
[the weather today |amusedamused]
[dance to this beat |fall out boy]

Because we support censorship.

Or actually because Jon is a nerd.

Really watch it, it's only 20 seconds or something.
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who's not online NOW brendon you DOUCHE??? [Jan. 21st, 2007|11:19 pm]
Ryan Ross
[Tags|, , ]
[here's the setting |my apartment]
[the weather today |frustratedfrustrated]
[dance to this beat |the cure]

I realize now that I'd forgotten how hard it is to make a new album...I started writing some new songs on tour and I've written some more since, but after I wrote 2 good ones and then about 50 false starts that all seemed to be talking about the sunlight slanting in through the bathroom window in my apartment and making a line across the bedroom floor, I decided that I probably need some new inspiration.

As we've said in interviews and things like that, this new album is going to be less personal...meaning less the story of Ryan Ross and more general, stories that can be abstracted to the audiences. And so no, I will not write another Camisado for this album but the problem faces us now: the songs don't just flow out materialize on the page - we have to find the stories we want to tell with them.

Spencer told me I'm probably overlooking stories that are begging to be told, and he hinted at some mysterious interaction between a boy who writes songs and sings guitar and another boy who sings the songs while molesting the first boy...I think I might have thrown an empty coffee cup at him to silence him, although I haven't discounted the suggestion completely...a storyteller and a writer of stories...

On a much more accomplished and concrete note, I have been bugging both Spencer and Jon to join this community and, while it seems Spencer took offense at being hit in the nose with the remains of a latte, Jon seems to have finally caved in and applied...either that or he was just trying to get rid of me so he could use his laptop in peace and do whatever he does with it in his spare time.

Internet porn, probably. I'm pretty sure that's what Brendon uses the internet for. I don't know if there's ever been a time when that boy hasn't been horny...I mean he's always humping something, whether it's the chair, or my leg...if he were any less cute no one would ever let him get away with it.
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survey thing [Jan. 8th, 2007|09:18 pm]
Ryan Ross
[the weather today |restlessrestless]
[dance to this beat |what's my age again - blink182]

Well Clemence asked me to...and honestly, it was pretty damn cool to see someone requesting me to do this when I haven't been here that long, and same goes to all you guys who said hi to me already. You guys here are awesome.

Anyway, on with the survey:Collapse )
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new years [Jan. 1st, 2007|01:37 pm]
Ryan Ross
[here's the setting |apartment]
[the weather today |sickabsolutely hating liquor]
[dance to this beat |raconteurs]

I've finally recovered from my New Year's hangover enough to write this for you guys. Funny, it's the first time I've really let myself drink anything...I've had kind of an irrational fear of alcohol because of my dad. Well the band was partying with some close friends, and Brendon said did I really want my dad's mistakes to rule every aspect of my life? And I thought, no, I don't. I don't know why I trust Brendon's judgement - doing so has to be one of the dumbest ideas ever - but I do.

So last night, once I was already sufficiently wasted, I realized that I am single. And I've been single for like an entire year. Not that I'm superstitious or anything, but there's that tradition where you kiss someone at the start of the new year and it brings you good romantic luck for the rest of the year. Last night I was thinking, thank god I don't believe in that.

Because I sat there, not kissing anyone, while Spencer had his girlfriend and Jon had his date. And sure, Brendon wasn't kissing anyone, but he's Brendon. That boy couldn't have bad romantic luck if he tried.

On a purely philosophical note, the whole midnight kiss thing seems really unfair. If you didn't manage to kiss anyone last year, you will have had the bad luck to not manage to get a date for New Years. And if you don't have a date, then you won't be kissing anyone (don't I know it), yielding yet another year of bad luck. Whoever came up with this was a whore. And a douche bag.
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ryan!: meet the press [Dec. 30th, 2006|09:14 am]
Ryan Ross
[here's the setting |my apartment]
[the weather today |artistic]
[dance to this beat |our lawyer made us change the name of this song... - FOB]

Yeah so I stumbled across this website while surfing the web and I thought I'd join...If you know Panic! at the Disco well, I'm sure you know me as Ryan Ross, lyricist/guitarist/reluctant singer. If you know us less well, you probably know me as "the guy from that band who looks like a girl."

I've even given up arguing with that one.

Yet I feel that our band's rise to fame happened so quickly that the webzines went wild and everyone's heard of Panic! at the Disco but no one really understands it. Surprisingly we actually didn't want to make it big so fast; we just wanted a record deal and a few small shows before we started getting played on the radio nonstop and winning music video awards.

So I guess in a way I see this as one of our chances to get the real "us" out there. Or as my chance, I guess. I'm not just a rockstar wearing makeup and costumes in an "emo/dancepunk" band, I'm a 20 year old boy who hasn't yet finished college and has only just left home.

Jon, Spence, Brendon and I all got together when we first got the record contract and decided we were gonna stay true to what we believed in and have our music say what we wanted it to say, even if people didn't like it. I think it's the same with being ourselves - we aren't going to change who we are just because the whole world sees us as something else.

So make us it, make us hip, make us scene. Or shrug us off your shoulders, don't approve a single word that we wrote.

It's time for us to take a chance.
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